Mom Died in the Dark

The sun hasn’t set
this early in a long time.

I want to tell my sis and bro
I’ll take care of everything—
the funeral, the flowers.
We’re not close anymore
so I need to impress them.

Then I’ll tell them about my plans
to find a happier place where
there are no misunderstandings.
But it would only be boastful talk—
I can barely lift my hand
to dial the first number.

I’ve never known much
about grace and forgiveness
but I know a lot
about walking away.